I must be Happy

Why I become like this? My attitude change damn lot…this is not the real me! The real me is cheerful, happy, pure ( as many people said), etc, etc. but now, I m emo, keep day dreaming, sad, etc. what happen? i must be happy!!! I don’t care, I have to be! I always tell people to be happy, but me myself is not, I have to give a good example! Let me tell you guys, after pei yi said that I m emo, I have decided, I have to make myself happy, no, not make, but I have to be nature happy. Thanks Pei Yi! Thanks a lot.

I hate you

I started to hate u on 20/8 if I’m not wrong, but I’m very sure that it begins on Friday.
You scolded me through phone on Friday, 20/8, I will never ever forget those words which you sent me. But on the following Monday, you pretended nothing had happened. I gone to recess with my 2 best friends, Pop and Amelia, and guess what? You called me 3-4 times, and sent me a message, it says: “where are you now? Come to my class.”! It surprised me! Because the previous week you just scolded me, and then… I just can’t believe it! I messaged my senior to seek some help, some suggestion, he told me to go your class and see what you will say… Thus, I went to your class, and you keep on pulling me!!! I tried to find excuses, but failed eventually… I went to canteen with you, and you expected me to follow behind your back!!! What you treat me as? Then I realized, you are not a true friend… And are just using me Just like what people said, including my senior…

Slowly, I knew you know that I hated you, you also stopped talking to me after that day… that’s good! Very good! But my senior, my favorite sec3 senior, Fang Sin, she became very cold towards me after she knew we had a war. This really break my heart, she treat me very well, and suddenly seldom talk to me… what happen? But she said before she doesn’t side with people, but why she is cold to me? I really have no idea… is it because of you??? If is, I tell you, I will hate you FOREVER.

I dun koe y, i just hav this feeling of losing my seniors, especially sec 3 seniors. i have a very deep feeling that they will treat me very cold... Today odac we, sec 1s need do 2 sets of stairclimbing, 23 stories!! and i also have a good news, sec 1s dun hav to carry bag pack. but for sec 3s seniors, they have to do 4 sets at the same building, 23 stories. and, they must carry bag pack for i think 2 sets. then the next 2 sets dun hav to. but the stairclimbing part is not the worst, the worst is after stairclimbing... Cheng Liang, Wee Lin, Leonard, (Wei Lun), and me, gossip about a girl from 103. and then Cheng Liang expect me to demostrate something to him, and guess what? Leslie at that time do finish, i think 2 sets of stairclimbing, and then saw what i demostrate to Cheng Liang, which is a very bad news... well, 2day still the same, sad, daydreaming, sleep in class, etc, etc.i really wish 2mr will be a better day...

:(

Sad... wondering, why am i sad all these days though i know it's not good for myself... but i just can't stop being sad... my chinese oral had past, i think i gonna failed my chinese oral... my chinese dropped damn lot, and my english just improved by a little bit... not worth it huh... my chinese suck man, and i started to hate chinese... so hard! oh yeah! my class had a new chairman - Wei Ern. and also i think i going to buy a new phone next week, i wish my sim card is not spoilt... as i afraid i can't memorise my new phone number...

:( I have no idea why i feel so sad these days... my studies dropped alot, my attidute getting bad to worst, probably influence by classmates. I know my studies dropped alot thus, i have to change, but I realised something, it was so hard. I wanted to change, i wish to but can't. I miss my good attidute, with my bad attidute, people seldom talks to me, i can see that they dislike me... why? why is this happening? feel like shouting, but i know it is useless... I don't know how am i going to survive, do with this attidute... Being a teenager is so hard, i miss my primary school... i miss the old me. people say, i last time is so pure, but now... :( And, my phone is spoilt, dropped into a pail of water and a touchscren + keypad phone gone... I just can't live without a phone... but at least i still have a computer...

I must say that today is an unlucky day… in the beginning of the day, quite fine, but in the afternoon, or should I say the start of odac… at the beginning of odac, still fine as I thought sec 2 seniors dun really like me, but they sat behind me, so I must say that’s a good thing. J but… after that, we, all sec 1s odac members need do PT, walk around Hougang with odac bag pack. At the first part of the PT, we are quite good. But reaching school, we ran, most of us. Our president, Hui Si, asked Hui Jun to past down the message not to run, but we didn’t hear it. And guess what, he ran with us… Reached school, reached odac room, we rest, put down bag pack, wait for them. Oh gosh, Hui Si scolded us, reprimanded us. This was bad. But before the PT, we took our bag pack and some sec 3s seniors helped us with it, and I sensed that 2 sec 3s senior dislike me, bad sign, but I expecting that, I have this sense long ago… but I was quite scared, I must admit. After the PT, after Hui Si scolded us, we went to the building located near Xinmin Sec Sch, we need to do 3 sets of stair-climbing, go up and come down counted 1. That building has 17 stories, quite cool huh. But our sec 3s seniors need to do 5 sets. After doing the 3 sets stair-climbing, I realized that my stamina dropped a lot, felt a bit of tired just 3 sets, I felt so useless… And my hair is so loose and messy, I just cant stand it. We played captain ball after the stair-climbing thus, I just tied my hair in just a second, anyhow tie. Captain ball I should be quite good but in this game I also dropped a lot, but I still did get to hold the ball and past around. J Came home, straight away go bathing. Arhhh!!! My phone dropped into a pail of water… And guess what spoilt, now drying it under a fan. I wish nothing will happen to it…

National Day

Happy 45th birthday Singapore!!! Today 5 different places celebrate National day just now, Seng Kang, Padang, Choa Chu Kang, Bishan and Woodland. I didn’t do to these places to watch, but I stay at home watch television, mum said “ it’s more worth it.” L The show starts at 5.30pm and end at 8.30pm, at 5.30pm, Prime minister gives us a speech, hmm… 15minutes. After that, something happens, which I had 4got. But I still remember what happens next, all the uniforms group came marching in and most of the uniform groups invented lots of new vehicles. I can only use 1 word to describe those vehicles : COOL! Really damn cool one of the NCC or NPCC vehicle can put something like bomb with a arrow or rocket shape that can shoot any airplane down. And not forgetting the red lions. The parachutes fly down from helicopter, 6000 feet away from the group if I’m not wrong. OMG right? Their landing also not bad… most of the other activity is just sing national day song. E.g Sing a song for Singapore, home. And came to the last part, fireworks!! This year fireworks I can tell it’s expensive as it forms different shape when the firework is being put out. Well, happy birthday Singapore!!

Just finish my homeworks, now damn free. Not quite much things happen today except a few minutes ago. I was reading through a page in internet, lot and lots of words, different people wrote different stuff. Some interesting some lame, but 1 paragraph caught my attention. The paragraph is
Those who doesn’t understand love,pls dun kp and make ppl feel worse...the girl must love the boy for who he is,not love him just because he's handspome,popular all this...Boys must love the girl and dun flirt,if wan love,must love her not just because she dolls herself up,hav a sexy body,puts make-up,is pretty-.-this is just a random comment:)
Well, a lot of short cuts words right? Because I get this from facebook and this post is posted by Samantha Luo. Such a wonderful post isn’t it? Strongly agree with this post… hahas… don’t mistook me, I'm still single. Just that I like this post, stand up for my friends. I dislike people who only look at people’s appearance and not their reality. Remember 1 sentence : do not judge a book by its cover. This whole paragraph is the meaning of that sentence. I dislike people because of this is because I am sure that person is a flirter. Break up with this man, find another man, and another and another, what you think of this person???

National Day

Today is a very special day. Because when we are singing the national anthem, the band members played the national anthem song and school song. They played it so nice that I almost thought that it was the school speaker played it. Before that, most of the uniform groups, participated in taking the flag to the small stage in the parade square. SJAB, NPCC, Girls Brigade, Boy Brigade and NCC( I think) taking the Singapore flag and march till they reach the small stage. Next we all go back to our classrooms, do session 1 – class activity. 1st, form teachers let us watch some videos which are related to national day. While watching, we are given a paper, looks like a survey form, got some questions on the piece of paper. I am the 1st one to finish it, bored, so take out my Chinese story book from my bag and read it. Just a few pages, Ms Lin broke the silence, rushing people to answer those questions fast as we have not much time left. I immediately got into group of 6, but now is teachers wasting time, Ernest got bored, tear a page from a set of newspaper, and we played tic-tak-to. Then teachers provide us with some coloured makers and a piece of paper. We are supposing to summaries what we wrote in the survey. In the middle of drawing, those media club members came into my class and visit my group. Arhh!!! Is what I can say, quickly hid my face. Well, in the end I still let them take pictures, shouting `’ I love Singapore!!!’ + some childish actions. Now I felt so embarrass, my childish action, if posed on the tv in xinmin… 后果跟定不堪设想。Because I can bet people will sure laugh at my childish actions.

At 2nd sessions, I there were some drama by shang hai people, and dance from India people. And I felt so lucky as I heard the finalist of XGT perform. They played and sang songs, I almost drop my tears by then. After these, we had came to the last part – Sing- along session. We sang almost all the national day songs, e.g Will we, shine for Singapore, live our dreams, flag our flag, etc etc. Teachers and guest have the chance to leave the hall 1st, after that people from 01 dun really know which year, started to shout out the boming game : 01 bomb. 01 bomb, 01 bomb the 05 bomb. But mr singh stop them.. but they tried again, hahas.

Well, I had wrote a lot today and I am going to stop here, c ya!